"Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders."
That line is from a song, Oceans, by Hillsong United. It's one of my favorite lines, and at the beginning of 2014 I decided that it would be one of my goals/prayers for this year. (By the way, if you haven't heard it before, stop reading this and go listen to it!! I'll even give you the link to it on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7QR2KGmL50k The song is beautiful, the lyrics are wonderful and convicting and encouraging, and it's one of my favorite songs. Then come back and finish reading this. :) Seriously though, listen to it!)
I had no idea that praying that would bring me to where I am now. When
you ask God to stretch you and bring you outside of your comfort zone,
which in essence is what that lyric is saying, He is going to answer
that prayer!
If you were to ask me what one of the biggest things God has been
teaching me (and is still teaching me) over the past two years, my
answer would be this: Trust.
Trust is a big one. It's hard, and I don't think it comes very naturally. I know it doesn't come easily to me, at least.
I honestly didn't really think much about the changes in my life that
might happen once I started praying this prayer. I knew that I needed my
trust to keep growing, and I still do... There will always be room for
growth. I just knew that I wanted to start trusting more, and then I
heard that line from Oceans and it really registered with me.
So I made that line a goal for 2014, as well as a prayer. It's probably a
good thing that I didn't know all the changes that would be coming, all
the ups and downs, all the scary moments, and all the exciting times,
otherwise maybe I wouldn't have been brave enough to start praying that.
Because I'll be honest, I'm not a brave person. I fear, I worry, and I
stress. I like things neat and orderly, but life definitely is not like
that! Thankfully we serve a God who is greater than any circumstance,
and Who is always in control.
Since beginning to pray that prayer, asking the Holy Spirit to take me
where my trust wouldn't have borders, He has done just that! I can
truthfully say that at the beginning of the New Year I wouldn't have
pictured myself where I'm at now.
Trust Without Borders. I just love that phrase! It really resonates with
me. I do trust God, but I think so often I trust Him in a small,
minimal way. My trust has limitations, and it has an end. God is slowly
and patiently teaching me to let go, and to let HIM lead me into a trust
that has no borders.
It's terrifying. It's exciting. It's confusing. It's rewarding. And I wouldn't want it any other way.
Praying that prayer, and making it into a goal for myself, has changed
my life. It's led me to say yes to a few things that terrified me (but
that were definitely good for me!). Looking back, I can see now that it
contributed to a huge decision/change in my life that I made (taking me
to very new territory and a new season in my life). It's helping me to
become less fearful and more courageous as the Spirit leads me to new
things.
I still have a hard time trusting, but I know that my God is trustworthy
and He is GOOD. Because of that, I know that I can trust Him to lead me
down a path that is for my good, not harm. (Read Psalm 23 if you ever
doubt that God is leading you and taking care of you). I know that I
still choose not to trust on a daily basis. It's a hard habit to break,
it really is. However, I'm striving to keep learning and to keep
choosing to walk in trust as I go through each day.
Trust is a choice, and it is one that must be made day by day, moment by
moment. I want to keep growing in my trust in the Lord, so that I say
yes to whatever and wherever He leads.
"Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders." That is my prayer!
My question for you is this: Will you pray it as well?
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